I know better.
I know where “burning the wicks at both ends of the candle” leads me.
And this time, as I KNEW I had *simply* done too much in the month of May. That reflective fact didn’t help me crawl out of the bed this morning (or the last few mornings). And because, school is on break, and all the teens were sleeping in…it just seemed easier to keep rolling over into a semi-fetal position. I justified it as refilling my cup (along with binge watching Netflix) But, in reality all of that slothing around just exasperates the anxiety that feeds the dread to get up. What a mess.
Thankfully, I had an appointment with my Life Coach today and had a “vent” session about how I allowed overwhelm to creep back into my life and how in the past this would have been the perfect excuse for me to “have a few cocktails”.
But instinctually (THANK THE UNIVERSE) I knew that was a terrible idea and drinking would have just numbed and subdued the signs I am feeling that are clearly adrenal fatigue and inflammation (don’t want to get out of bed, don’t want to exercise, lower back pain…sadness, frustration, annoyance)… I would have put myself down a terrible rabbit hole. So I’m going to give myself a big pat on the back for seeing the signs and not repeating THAT terrible pattern. At least I am still sober.
Now it is time to “put my pieces back together again”. Unlike Humpty Dumpty’s aides, I can do that! Self Care must come first. All of us in our blogging world have written about it: Sleep Hygiene, Clean Eating, Hydration, Breathing….all of this DOES matter.
I know what I have ahead of me, but I didn’t know how to start it up again…and then I opened my email and there was a message from one of my favorite “mentors”:
She calls it RESET 360. And her latest book lays out a framework to:
Lose Weight, End Anxiety and Depression, Remove Toxins, Find Balance…
I have a starting point for my action plan. It is time to be “More Than Sober”… I am reestablishing my search for “Optimal Me”.
Anyone want to join me?